#Im begging God to let it have all the grotesque of the book

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Rereading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix: Chapter Thirty-Five - Beyond the Veil

i am the opposite of ready for this.

(EDIT: sorry this is so long, i just have a lot of feelings OK)

- ok EW bellatrix is talking to harry in a baby voice and just... gag me

“Oh, you don’t know Potter as I do, Bellatrix,” said Malfoy softly. “He has a great weakness for heroics”

i meeeeeaaaan.... he aint wrong.

But the Death Eaters did not strike. “Hand over the prophecy and no one need get hurt,” said Malfoy coolly.

yall know lucius is just like ‘get me the FUQ outta here so i can go home to my family plz. lets not make this a thing’

- lol harry is being so casual rn, just trying to stall, asking questions about the prophecy and like, the death eaters are actually answering him??? wuts going on

“You dare speak his name with you unworthy lips, you dare besmirch it with you half-blood’s tongue, you dare-” “Did you know he’s a half-blood too?” said Harry recklessly. Hermione gave a little moan in his ear. “Voldemort? Yeah, his mother was a witch, but his dad was a Muggle - or has he been telling you lot he’s pureblood?”

JFC HARRY NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR YOUR SAVAGERY 

- damn what a waste for them to smash all the prophecies like??? those could have been important???

A baby’s head now sat grotesquely on top of the thick, muscled neck of the Death Eater as he struggled to get up again.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUQ

Harry raised his wand but to his amazement Hermione seized his arm. “You can’t hurt a baby!”

UM HERMIONE I THINK IN THIS SITUATION IT IS PERFECTLY REASONABLE TO HURT A BABY

- OK shit is going BANANAS - hermione just got hit with some purple fire spell that made her pass out, neville just got kicked in the face REAL hard, ginny, luna, and ron are missing... like...i cant handle this rn

He had one hand on Hermione’s shoulder, which was still warm, yet did not dare to look at her properly. Don’t let her be dead, don’t let her be dead, it’s my fault if she’s dead...

ugh. BUT COULD YOU IMAGINE? if hermione died in the 5th book, harry might as well have just given up. like theres no point continuing without hermione

- ok we found the rest of the gang but ron is high as fuq and ginny broke her ankle... SO WE WERE KIND OF BETTER OFF WITHOUT THEM TBH

“Harry, we saw Uranus up close!” said Ron, still giggling feebly. “Get it, Harry? We saw Uranus - ha ha ha -”

NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR JOKES RONALD

“RON, NO!” Harry did not know what would happen if Ron touched the tentacles of thought now flying behind the brain, but he was sure it would not be anything good. He darted forward but Ron had already caught the brain in his outstretched hands. The moment they made contact with his skin, the tentacles began wrapping themselves around Ron’s arms like ropes. “Harry, look what’s happen - no - no, I don’t like it - no, stop - stop -”

MY BABY!!!! jfc this is such a shit show I FORGOT

“You see, there are ten of us and only one of you...or hasn’t Dumbledore ever taught you how to count?” “He’s dot alone!” shouted a voice from above them. “He’s still god be!” Harry’s heart sank. Neville was scrambling down the stone benches toward them, Hermione’s wand held fast in his trembling hand.

the truest gryffindor ive ever seen. 

“It’s Longbottom, isn’t it?” sneered Lucius Malfoy. “Well, your grandmother is used to losing family members to our cause... Your death will not come as a great shock...” “Longbottom?” repeated Bellatrix, and a truly evil smile lit her gaunt face. “Why, I have had the pleasure of meeting your parents boy...”

OK TOO FUCKING FAR. IM OUT OF HERE.  ok im not but STILL that like, reeeeeally hurt.

- they are now crucio-ing neville. its seriously getting hard to read.

Then, high above them, two more doors burst open and five more people sprinted into the room: Sirius, Lupin, Moody, Tonks, and Kingsley.

on one hand im like ‘YES our saviors are here!!!!!!’ but on the other hand its like sirius im begging you. GO BACK HOME

- neville cant talk bc of his bloody nose and mouth so he just STABS A DEATH EATER IN THE EYE WITH HIS WAND. amazing.

Directly above them, framed in the doorway from the Brain Room, stood Albus Dumbledore, his wand aloft, his face white and furious. Harry felt a kind of electric charge surge through every particle of his body - they were saved.

dont mind me, just silently weeping.

And Harry saw the look of mingled fear and surprise on his godfather’s wasted, once-handsome face as he fell through the ancient doorway and disappeared behind the veil, which fluttered for a moment as though in a high wind and then fell back into place.  Harry heard Bellatrix Lestrange’s triumphant scream, but knew it meant nothing - Sirius had only just fallen through the archway, he would reappear from the other side any second... But Sirius did not reappear.

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But as he reached the ground and sprinted toward the dais, Lupin grabbed Harry around the chest, holding him back. “There’s nothing you can do, Harry -” “Get him, save him, he’s only just gone through!” “It’s too late, Harry -” “We can still reach him -” Harry struggled hard and viciously, but Lupin would not let go... “There’s nothing you can do, Harry...nothing...He’s gone.”

this part has always hit me hard because as much as this hurts harry, think about REMUS. his best friend, who he already lost once and only recently got to have him back in his life. like imagine having to be strong for this young boy while you’re silently dying inside. 

basically fuck this shit.

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